rmb when i used to hug her from behind :')
Friday, March 12, 2010
6:54 PM
hey ! hello i'm back :) no actually i'm not , i'm jus wondering how my blog is doing (which is actually dead ~.~) yeah so um , lets talk about how i'v beeen doing ;)life been tough ever since a couple of mnths back , basically i'm no longer that kind of good guy anymore , i dunno , i'v become vulgar and bad , and i'm no longer emo at all :) actually i'm not even emo (i cry onli coz i lost someone in life) , i kinda change AGAIN? wtf! hahaha it'll be the last . yeah , if u try to shoot me wif words , i can shoot u so bad u dun even wish u know me , but if u are kind and nice to me , i'll be 10x even nicer to u and treasure u fr all u do :) so the point is , don't cross the line >:D hehe , whow i sound evil O.o nahh who cares~ i'm not afraid of losing friends ? i'm not even afraid of anything anymore~ but if u are truly a friend , than i can show u tht i trust u with my life:) touched? haha . i'v changed , i'm not weak anymore .. and i seriously hate fighting and violence! i used to f&v but not anymore , i hate it now it totally sucks and childish . whats the point of using physical when u can just destroy someone mentally? just give that person one "good" eye contact & u'll be trashing'em the whole day (if u know how) haha , i seem childish in school coz i'm jus hving fun :) fun is a sense of maturity everyone needs in life , so long as u don't act like a fool or an idiot , thats fine .. i don't wanna show ppl who i am , i'd rather they take years to figure me out :) then thats what they call "u know me"~ hahaha , whow , i type so much? i wasn even thinkin , haha , everything jus ran through my head .. and btw fr all the ppl who think u know me , i'm sorry :) , u don't know a fuck abt me (just my hobbies) . :) i dont think TOO much anymore fr those who r complaining , actually its a waste of time thinking of things i cant get or doesnt apply in reality, so in case u don't get my point "I'M NO LONGER WHO I USE TO BE" :) .. fuck , my post is so long haha X) "life is never easy , it's always tough . thats why we have to grow tougher to stay alive . don't just sit there and cry , u'll be drifting apart , from what u r striving fr and whats left in ur heart" - berry Ahmad ppl out there are the real deal , they dont give a fuck but to win , so watch urself :)
Friday, October 9, 2009
7:09 AM
life is getting bored cause i'm missing her alot,i'm doing things alone cause now i'm on my own,so i'm trying my best to continue living without my lovely darling,though i'm dying to have her here.. but that's the thing i fear..everyone says blogging is boring, but to me it's still interesting,cause there are memories i had that makes me really sad,and i still got poems to write that i would like to fit inside,... and its the only way to show you that i still love you...
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
5:04 AM
this week and next whole week.. exam!, so far eng and mt quite simple {first time understand mother tounge well} aamil dun wanna study wif me :{ wan play soccer only, i also played lar but i was also the one who ask him to stop ;xx., btw my ss sucks, dunno y my teachers keep saying its good., sucks okayy! SUCKS! haha :}......... kay a moment of peace.........R.I.P bery...i couldn take it at all when i see you feeling very sad,felt like i didn care much for you & makes me feel really bad,wish u would cry in my arm but felt like u'r so far away,but i'm sitting alone in these empty space hoping that u'll always staywipe those tears away, please dun cry,think of all the good times we had together,nothing works better if u never try,hope there's something we had that makes u feel better.ily ly ly & ly but i'm just tired of saying it anymore..
Monday, September 7, 2009
7:43 PM
This whole week will be staying at home studying or doing anything else at home in the day., except for exercise. BBut will be performing at night in clubs or hotel, then reach home morning @ 2-3a.m -.-, so tired siol & in the morning hving tuition... My dad, signed me up fr so many Gigs{!?} currently hving 4 Gigs fr this week }; think i machine arh can play 24/7?? machine also will spoil sia.. & b4 performance also need practice right?.. but for his sake, i'll still perform & the cash flow is pretty big., 1 small performance can easily earn up to $50. so its pretty worth it, & relatives also watched me play.., Yesterday was the first Gig., but started pretty early @ 8.30 & end @ 11.30. perform wif my sister this song called "remembering Sunday"... {halfway singing tears suddenly drip, but lucky ppl neve see :/} it was a song, story abt a guy who wants to marry a girl but she is running away from her problem, away from the guy {who then goes home alone}.. and ya, its a sad song.. saturday is the big event.. will be performing at "Hard Rock Cafe" if anyone knows abt it?.......... Nvm......, starting to feel moodless in doing anything this few days., dun feel excited or nervous when performing anymore., or mabye dun feel like being a performer..., hari raya coming but dun think i would be so glad to celebrate it..., yesterday also can't sleep properly when i came home..... forget it byebye.this was wat she actually meant to me
{i was stuck to my breath whenever i see u} {sudenly filled up with memories and sorrow whenever someone speaks ur name or u suddenly appear in my mind} {i couldn love anyone else nomore coz my affection was totally squeezed out during my time wif u.,} {u didn make me sad.., or hurt me., or made me heart broken.., u killed me inside} {i love u of who u were not who u are} {back to square1? i dun think so...} {i have love to the extension of madness, n that is sensible love.} {played a song dedicated to u at least once a day hoping u'd come back} wrote a new phrase twice a week since we started... if u still need me, i'll be glad to help.. but ur parents means more than me.., so go ahead...
R.I.P bery..
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
3:13 AM
we didn win yesterday's hougean talent, but we performed our best. played "this is me" by camp rock. then had head prefect interview :{ ., didn know wat to speak at first & was hving the feeling of not wanting to become the head prefect but as i step into the interview room and took a seat at that cooool chair, everything came out of my mouth and didn hv to stop to think of my speech. everything ran smoothly and the priciple was impressed wif the way we interviewed.., oh & the six of us are now the priciple's top students and he is gonna pay a close attention to us {no more fooling around}.. i'm gonna hv to do 2hr community service every weekends }};
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
7:31 AM
just now was rehearsal for hougean talent., screwed up ., Gabriel wtf u playing !? ran out of tempo! b4 the actual rehearsal already been practicing wif Gabriel for @ two hours -.- , fed upp sia . please lar boy., ppl teach u something listen properly , dun for awhile knw then ltr play solo again -.- .. Was so excited when rehearsal start but wif this kind of attitude, its... please lar, just listen, dun wonder in your own world .
Fasting Month
Sunday, August 23, 2009
4:52 AM
so long never post coz busy spending time for darling :} but fasting month is here and soon.., Hari Raya wOOt!!
Friday went to chak's bbq at his condo in farrer park, the place was freaking awesome! hang ard, watch them play pool, ate bbq, play play wif darling, had fun wif the boys & it was time to go :( [dad called]. liqin & darling accompanied me to mrt station then kissed darling goodbye (awww sweet lips ;} and it was the last day fr me to hang out wif her };).
Saturday was already fasting month ;} (can't meet her in school :{.) breakfast at grandmum's house, variety of dishes prepared by my aunties, but no one could beat my mom's dish (like they say "mom cooks the best") woah eat alot, must exercise twice the effort haha.
thats all fr nw :)., maybe i'll post fr big events but not everyday HAHA x)
